I am analyzing all my data from the summer and it's reshaping my mind, forcing me to understand a new way of thinking that never made sense to me before. Math and science concepts have always needed a few years to settle in my mind before they made sense to me as general principles, but this is that process speeded up. I think I'm struggling so much more than others because my mind doesn't work this way naturally. I have to remember that many people never understand these things, so it's normal that it takes time.

Over the next week and a half, I'll finish this up and have my presentation ready for a conference after New Year's. It will be so good to be able to whatever I'd like. It wouldn't be so bad if it made sense to me.